Kavyalaxmi-Inspiration of Poem

It is one of the fav poem I have written 7 years ago......................

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Kavyalaxmi:

Amar Sristi amar moner majhe
Aporup ek tanmoyotar saje
Bajaitechhe Rakhal Banshir sur.


Jadi Kakhono pore abar mone
Sei se ankhi amar moner kone
eto kachhe tabu onek duur.

parini ami bolte moner katha
tai to chitte peyechi asim byatha
parini ami bhulte tomar ankhi
ankhir tane sudhui bose thaki
hoy na kichui paoa.

Smritir pothe dristi jakhon phere
takai ami amar hridoytire
bhantar tane susko nadi aj
saibal crira karchhe amay ghire.

Smritir kona kuriye niye pathe
ganthchi mala moner katha diye
kavyalaxmi tumi je aj mor
bhaloi acchi gavir byatha peye...
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I am trying to translate this bengali poem in English, though my translation is not good.

Insiparion of my poem:
In a tranquil state of mind, my own innovation creates a beautiful and malancholy tone in the core of my heart.
If again those eyes are flashed in my mind, if again you are remembered... as if you are so near...but so far.
I could not tell my minds' desire, thats why I got tremendous pain.
I cant forget your mysterious eyes,as if I have lost everything for the attraction of them.
If I walk down the memory lane created by this atraction of love and again come back and try to listen my heart--it is now a dry river full of thirsty algaes.
Now I am creating a garland of the few small flowers of my unforgettable memory
you are my inspiration of poem.... I am now happy with that deep pain.
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